Monday, January 7, 2013

Independence

Today, my best friend called me, and said, "Hey, run a marathon with me." For those of you who know me, you know I can't even run around the block. I stuttered for a bit trying to find an answer. I mean, I have been wanting to work out more, and I felt that I needed a new goal in order to motivate myself. As I asked a few friends about it, a runner friend of mine answered and said, "I can't do it and I'm a runner, so you can't do it." At that moment, I immediately answered my best friend and told her, I'm all in.

As I sit back and ponder this conversation, I realize that my motivation for doing this marathon is only partially out of a desire to work out. The majority of the motivation stems from the fact that someone told me, I can't. See, when I was little, there were two rules in my house. One, I was not allowed to say "No." Two, I was not allowed to say "I can't."

If you've ever met me, you know that I am incredibly driven. I have goals that are above and beyond anything that most people would deem to be possible. Ask me my life plans and the things I'm doing to get there, and you will stare back at me in awe that I'm so organized and well thought through, but with complete confusion that I believe in myself that I can accomplish this. I realized that all of my motivation comes from constantly hearing, "You can't."

Yeah, I know this post is cheesy beyond belief. But let's be honest. There is no way I can possibly count the amount of times I heard, "You're not smart enough", "You're not good enough", "You won't get into college", "You won't get good enough grades", blah blah blah. Every time someone says I can't, my only instinct is to prove them wrong.

You can tell me I can't all you want. I am crazy ambitious. My life goals are far and above the atmosphere, waiting to be reached by one of NASA's crazy projects, even though NASA has no more funding. I know I'm crazy. Tell me I can't, but I will show you, I can do it and I will do it better than you ever imagined.

As I write this, I realize that there are so many flaws to this. First of all, there was a time when I quit as soon as someone said I couldn't do something. But after a while, I realized no one else can stop me from the things that I want to accomplish. It's my life. But why do we all so often get put down? Why do we let others stop us? Why do others feel the need to put others down?

It's a competitive world, and by no means is this post about to turn into an overly hipster rant on how we should all love each other. The point is, when you're competing, you can do it two ways. You can put others down, or you can work your hardest to reach your goals. When people put you down, you just have to work harder.

So go forth, commence, and do better.

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